Mother's Love

I love my mom to tiny pieces.
She is the most hard working person
that I have ever known and has the
biggest heart in this whole wide world.

I wish I could be half the woman she is.

Hanging out with Friends

Freely hanging out with friends
has always been a struggle for me.
I either have to lie or sneak out quietly.
I'm not doing anything bad.
Literally just going to the park
or at a friend's house hanging out.

My mom doesn't understand
that having friends is also an
important part of life.

I want to have a social life while
I still can before reality life sets in.

I want to enjoy life with friends.
Sometimes stupid things can happen
when you are more exposed
but I think it's all part of life.
The consequences we faces
with the choices that we make.

Pressure

There are so much pressure being a Hmong girl.

Parents have their expectations and there's nothing wrong with that.

Even my siblings have expectations for me.

I'm not talking about other Hmong girls

because everyone is different.

I'm just talking about my experience and me personally.

The pressure of having to be a good daughter

going to school

having a stable job

and finding a good husband

yet at the same time

not allowing me to

go out into the world

and experience it for myself.

It sucks to see other people

doing things they enjoy and love.

Why don't I just do it?

I can just do it but I chose not to

because I want to be the daughter

my parents want me to be 

because as a daughter

that is the least I can do for my parents

before I marry.

Sick Father

My dad has been sick for the past couple of months now.
I want to go visit so badly although I know I can't do much for him.

Sucks that I have to live so far.